I think to call life a roller-coaster is about right.
You go up, you go down, and at times to coast right along....
I'm kind of confused to where i am on that roller-coaster right now.
I don't know if I'm still going down, coasting, or coming back up!!
My host mom moved out of the main house this Monday, and i was kicked out by my host father, so i ended up moving in with my host mom (host dad said he was 'f*cking miserable' and that he couldn't deal with me laughing around him - i get that i spose.)
Only thing is, Yes... I've moved in with my host mom buuutttt, i don't have a room there.... yeah i'm currently sleeping on a futon in the children's play room, Au - Pair sleeping in playroom.... Ironic much??
But life isn't bad, yeah i'm stressed out and shit, smoking wayyyy more than i should, but hey I'm still in America, i still get to see my au - pair mates and the best part of all is that my kick ass sister finally flies into Philly Aug 4th - so super duper excited about that one!!
Not sure when i'll be going back to Aus, it might be Sept it might be the original Oct, i think i'll find that out by the end of this week.
Either one is fine with me, i mean i'd love to stay the 'full year' and not just 11 months but once the kids are back at school i'm not needed as a care provider anymore so i understand why i'd be going home early - not to mention the unforeseen shitty circumstances, were all living in.
Separations a bitch....
Whom ever thinks splitting the kids up and breaking up the house is easy is so so so wrong...
I've been through it when i was a kid (COMPLETELY different circumstances, but it was separation non the less) but when your a kid you don't fully understand what the fuck is going on...
Living through it as an 'outsider looking in' - its turmoil, not to mention heart breaking.
But life is life and things will change, and we've just gotta keep rolling on :)
The roller-coaster will always go back up!! ;) right!!? hahaha
xoxo Bekka
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