Live your life,

Follow your dreams,
life isn't always what it seems

choose your fights
find courage in yourself
know your family loves you
believe in who you are...

Finding yourself can be hard
but losing yourself is harder...
never give up
never lose nope
even when the sun isn't shining
know your heart is still beating.
xoxo
By Bek Waters

Sitting here on Christmas day and i get thinking....


A. fuck this yeah has flown past and B. look how far i have come.

I Remember being a broken little girl at 16, in and out of hospital, with scares from a past life... Back then i never would have considered any of this possible...

Now i look back and i can see how far ive come. I'm on my way to living my dreams, and my bucket list is getting carved the fuck up!! (ticking that bastard off heaps in the US)

And yes, my start in America wasn't as easy as i'd hoped, but all great things some with great struggle and i'm happy to say that my life is on track right now!

im loving my new host family and im making new a beautiful memories and friends...

The fact that i had the courage to fly half way across the world still amazes me, i mean i always spoke about it as a kid, but its one thing to talk about, its a completely different thing to put those words into action. yet here i am. a girl of my word i suppose.

So much has shaped the person i am today, as corny and as lame as that might come off, but im so fucking grateful for everything and everyone in my life.

i'm grateful that i'm enjoying my life and pursuing my dreams, im grateful for having the most BEAUTIFUL and understanding family, who are my rock, my sword and my shield.

i guess as Thanksgiving does for Americans Christmas does for me, makes me see whats truly important and gives me perspective.

Not too long from now will be the new year 2010, a year of great things to come !! i can feel it!!
annnnd not to mention my twenty fucking first in this bad ass country!!!
sooooo keen for that!!

ok thats enough of my thinking and corny posts for one day! stay safe and MERRY BLOODY CHRISTMAS xo mwah


Congratulations!
Today is your day,
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.

You’ll look up and down streets. Look ‘em over with care.
About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.”
With your head full of brains, and your shoes full of feet,
you’re too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you’ll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you’ll head straight out of town.

It’s opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don’t worry. Don’t stew.
Just go right along.
You’ll start happening too.

OH!
THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!

You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sites!
You’ll join the high fliers!
who soar to high heights.

You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed.
You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don’t.
Because, sometimes, you won’t.

I’m sorry to says so
but, sadly, it’s true
that Bang-ups
and Hang-ups
can happen to you

You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You’ll be left in a Lurch.

You’ll come down from the Lunch
wuth an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you’ll be in a Slump.

And when you’re in a Slump,
you’re not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re dark.
A place that could sprain both elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF you should go in,should you turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quaters? Or maybe not quite?
Or go around and back and sneak from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused
that you’ll start in to race
down long and wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most usless place

The Waiting Place…

…for people just waiting.

Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO!
That’s not for you!

Somehow you’ll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You’ll find the bright places
where boom bands are playing.

Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. There are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don’t.
Because, sometimes, they won’t.

I’m afraid that some times
you’ll play lonely games too.
Games you can’t win
’cause you’ll play against you.

All Alone!
Whether you like it or not.
Alone will be something
you’ll be quite a lot.

And when you’re alone, theres a very good chance
you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.

But on you will go
though the whether be foul.
On you will go
though your enemies prowl.
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though you arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike.
And I know you’ll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.

You’ll get mixed up of course,
as you already know.
You’ll get mixed up
with many stray birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life’s
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with you left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent garanteed!)

KID YOU’LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So…
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Alenn O’Shea
you’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So… get on your way!

me fucking around in Starbucks with Yo :P



Ok so this past weekend I went to Cleveland Ohio for the last 30 SECONDS TO MARS show of the decade.. And i wasn’t disappointed!

The show was fucking fantastic!!! I loved every second of that entire weekend!

I met and made new friends!!! I had an epic adventure, I did shit loads of promo (and surprisingly enough LOVED IT) loved talking to random ppl id never met, that all shared the same music passion as me!! Was wicked!

I got a pic with Mr Shannon Leto and gave him a hug!!! I gave Jared a hi five and I got all 3 of their autographs!! (Tomo was MIA before the show so we couldn’t talk to him!!)

Id definitely LOVE to do something like that as a job/career!! It was so bloody brilliant!

Im still on the biggest high from that weekend!

Ok its xmas in 3 days! WOWZERS this year as literally flown the fuck past!! In the blink of an eye ill be bloody 40!! Lol ok maybe not but I mean 9 years ago I was at the Sydney Olympics…. Seriously that doesn’t seem to long ago, until you think of the years in between then and now!

I am absolutely loving my new host family!!! They are the American version of my real family back at home in Aus!! So its really cool!!! And im really starting to enjoy this experience!

Ive met some really cool chickys also! Which is great! I LOVE making friends! The more the merrier I say so BRING IT ON! Hehehe

Missing my family and friends back at home, but loving how exciting everything is over here!!!!!
I could definitely get used to this crazy roller coaster!

Im thinking about going to Europe whilst im in America (if I can save enough) cuz its sooooo much cheaper to fly to Europe from the US compared to Australia….. We shall see what happens!

My sis says shes looking at coming to visit me in April of 2010! FUCK YEAH!! Bring it baby! We will have a blast!

There was a snow storm on the east coast the other night and we got 14 inches of snow!! Its BEAUTIFUL!!! I love it and its so much fun!! Looks like im having a white xmas this year!! (another thing off the bucket list!!! )

Still no clue as to WHAT the fuck im doing for new years eve, im considering having a quiet one!! New years is usually over rated, but we shall see!!

If you havn’t listened to the new 30 SECONDS TO MARS album THIS IS WAR, let me tell you you’re a wanker… hahahha. Seriously though LISTEN TO IT!! You will be pleasantly surprised!

Alright love you all, stay safe xo

Thought i might put up some songs i'm chilling too atm, so here goes;


Stellar - Incubus
Little Lion Man - Mumford and Sons
L490 - 30 Seconds to Mars
Meds - Placebo
Awake My Soul - Mumford and Sons
Uprising - Muse
Last Day on Earth - Kate Miller-Heidke
Anna Molly - Incubus
Blinded by the Lights - The Streets
Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo
Alibi - 30 Seconds to Mars

yep thats some of my chillage music for today :)

Ok so the place i'm currently living turned to shit...

I mean the people weren't who they said they were, they constantly made digs about me, and the under minded me when ever possible and lets not forget their children's AB NORMAL tantrums and behaviour...

I've worked in childcare for 2 years and studied it for 2 years and i have NEVER seen or had to deal with kids like theirs.. EVER... but it wasn't the childrens fault, it was the parents LACK of discipline, no meant yes and yes meant yes in this family.
The children ruled the roost and that was that.

It was Crazy and ridiculous! I was just a cheap dollar sign to them! i wasn't even a person!!

So i'm currently going into 're-match' which is an anxious situation to be in!!
I mean everyones on their best behavior (inc me) so how do you REALLY know if some is who they say they are!!

I mean the current situation i'm in PROVES that people lie to get what they THINK the want...

I have two interviews with potential host families today... and i REALLY hope everything goes well...

All i want is to find the 'perfect' match for me, and be able to do my job happily, be apart of the family, be treat like a human being, and be able to enjoy my stay in the United States...

I think my 1st HF forgot that, this is a cultural exchange as well, not just a cheap way to get some one to look after your children...

I'm a bit nervous to meet these families, but hopefully all goes well!!

Ok love you all xo

The new Thirty Seconds To Mars album - THIS IS WAR is fantastic...

I cannot stop listening to it...
Its raw, its honest, its dark, its deep, its beautiful...

My favorite songs on the album so far are: Stranger in a strange land, Alibi, and Hurricane <3
If you haven't listened to this album i advise you too...

The way the guys incorporated the summit into this album, is amazing.
It sounds fantastic and its great to be apart of something so special and unique!


Listen, Love, Learn, Buy it!! xo

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